feeling: a little better, still sort of shocked though.

wearing: jeans, flip flops and a pink t-shirt, i look like crap, but i don't care. and i went to like 10 graduation parties today.

on winamp: veronica, elvis costello

thoughts: so, yeah... i found out that tina was following mr. wunn (our speech and debate teacher at west) when she lost control of her car and went over the median right in front of a semi... and they had pictures of her car in the paper... and it's just crushed... which just makes me even more sad, because i keep thinking that like, she had to have the moment when she knew that she was going to crash... and if it was that bad of a wreck... just, ugh. i still don't know when the services are or anything, maybe scott knows.... i'll have to ask him. but yeah... i went to a bunch of graduation parties today, and it was scary... because i could tell almost everyone was in this weird state of depression... only pretending to be happy. yeah, i need to talk to ben, i haven't talked to him all weekend, i talked to his mom and dad and sister yesterday, and they all said they'd tell him i needed him, but he still hasn't called or anything. so yeah. so, uh, yeah. this sucks. like no other, someone from our school dies every year, and i feel horrible for saying this... but why did it have to be tina? why not someone else.... she was so smart... and had so much potential... why couldn't it have been some dumb ass.... god, this sucks.

*megan*