wearing: harry potter pants, my close up sweatshirt.

thoughts: Tina's funeral was today... it was both nice (closure-wise) and awful . . . i wasn't going to go up to the casket at all, because i was so upset, but i ended up wanting to see her one last time, so mrs. hamm (the drama advisor here) walked me and paulina up to the front of the church... and while i don't regret going up to say goodbye, make my peace, etc... it was still horrible... it was like, you could tell that the funeral people had tried to make her look natural, and not bruised, but you could see that her skin was too dark, and her face looked all bruised, and i seriously lost it and had to be like, held up by ms. hamm. it was absolutely horrible. i cried from like, 2:00 to 6:00 . . . about 10 of her closest friends and people on the debate team spoke, and mr. wunn, the debate coach gave a long speech that made me cry really hard... and frances gave a speech about how seeing the accident occur was one of the worst moments of her life... it was so horrible to know that mr. wunn was with her up until her last moment... and he had to be there to be supportive to all of us, but i can only imagine how he really felt, same thing for ms. hamm. tina's parents were wonderful, only i felt so bad for both of them, her mom was just sobbing... and wouldn't let them close the casket, and her dad had to hold her mom back so they could close it and start the ceremony. . . anyhow... i really realize how much i miss her... and i was so angry that all the pictures of here weren't... accurate enough... tina was absolutely beautiful, and you couldn't tell it from the photos.... *sigh*

on a lighter, not so horrible note.... apparently the pictures are working... and the comments aren't and the links aren't... someday i'll figure out the design of this damn thing...

*megan*