since last night: 1 piece of thin crust cheese pizza, an almond brownie, a jolly rancher sucker. three glasses of pepsi (with pizza), 20oz dr pepper, 1 latte with three sugars, one lemonade


today was really difficult at work. i didn't want to talk to anyone at all, i was so slow moving, and i nearly cried like... four times. for awhile i caught flies in cups and put lids on them ... i have three or four really funny stories about work yesterday, but i don't feel like relaying them... maybe later. today was just crappy though. i went to target and bought some stuff in hopes of making myself feel better, but it really didn't work. i'm not hungry at all, i just don't want to eat. last night i was really violent. things were broken, bad things... stuff. yeah. i'm contemplating whether to publish this or not. i want to just post it... it's like i feel like i don't want to share anything... but i do. maybe i'll wait until i feel better, then publish all the posts i wrote.... maybe i'll just publish this... i don't know...