since last post: quite a bit. i don't care guys. if i'm gonna go crazy and anorexic bulimic... someone'll figure it out when i get all bitchy. i can't keep track, and i'm like.. binge eating, and it grosses me out to reread what i've eaten. so... yes. now, i'm eating some pudding and like... my third dr pepper of the day.


another very long talk with rob. still no definite outcome. fine me in a couple days.... if i'm around... we'll assume it's ok. if i've randomly disappeared and am not speaking to anyone, or am on one of my hiding screennames (renata knows which one... she can watch for me...) we'll know that i'm not ok.


i talked to henrie for awhile tonight. i LOVE henrie. i didin't even get to spend much time with him in KC. but he was so great. and he's so fun now. he let me rant and rave to him about everything. and, i bought him a radio head poster. did i say that earlier? well, sal's music emporium is going out of business (tragic. it reeeeally is.) so, i went and bought all his prince cds, and some REM, and the smashing pumpkins boxed set... and a couple trainspotting posters... (not the biggest fan of the movie... only seen it twice... but i LOOOOOVE the book.) and, there were a couple GIANT radio head posters... and i just mentioned it to henrie, and he's like "i love radiohead!!" so i was like "well..." and went and got one of them. it's like.. for amnesiac? or soemthing? i think it's a cool poster and i don't even like radiohead.


i'm talking to luke right now. i heart luke. he's like... caleb... only not a stoner. and a little smarter... and... stuff. and here, instead of LA (i heart you caleb, you will always be my pseudo big brother....)


i don't really have anything else to say. i'm... tired. i'm confused. i'm kinda lonely.