FINALLY! ^_^


anesthesia, necrophilia new bridge... thingy... at the end... and... if i were intelligent i could describe it better... but i cant... you'll all just have to come to either ames or the IC show and see it all for yourself.
flower of a zero (new) upbeat tempo, i realllly like it, and i need to remember to go be a lyrics whore and ask stuart about it. "baby why do we do this/ we've already been through this/ we're all jesus and judas" i liked it. yes.
inventions "this is what ben frankling may have been like, if he were raised in transylvania."
bell
human girl after this song, he asked for requests, and was leaning back, aghast at the idea of playing both eight days in the lotus *and* doppelganger in the same night. and he was leaning WAY back, and there was a spot on the wall, which he thought was a mosquito. so, he was like "whoaa! eight days in the lotus?! doppelganger?! aaah! *pause* hey is that a mosquito? *leans farther backwards, falls* AH! *stumbles around, catches self and stands up* no, no it's not."
fault lines
eight days in the lotus
even the devil is god stu just had bumperstickers made up, that say "even the devil is god" so, he's like "i can't WAIT to put this on my car! i wanna see how it effects traffic flow." there was also a discussion about how he was leaping and bounding around the (very small) stage. "i find that leaping and bounding is generally more accepted in europe..." also, bounding vs. being bound.
savoring samsara
nothing in between
doppelganger
penguins
kid mystic he asked for requests before this song... and there were three predominant requests, which he considered very carefully, then played kid mystic which *wasn't* one of the requests. but i like the guitar on this song, so it was all good. for me at least.
fall awake "there's a place in me scientists can't explain so they break their strings." which made the footloose ending a little different. goodtimes.
universe communion "thank you very much, goodnight, FREE MINNESOTA!"


ok, i'll put a little diff version of this up on the stuart page as soon as i get a chance. this ended up being rushed because rob FINALLY showed up (i swear, i call, and he's like "sure, i'll come over, be there in a minute" and an HOUR (not exaggerating.) later he shows up, and is like "what? what do you mean i'm late? i came right over..." *sigh sigh sigh* ok, i have lots of blog about but there have been time constraints, and i have to be places, or people get bitchy, and... ugh. i just want some time! to do what i want! i have plenty of free time from school, but everyone in the world is so goddamn insistant and whiny about where i am. gr.

heey, ihaven't typed my stuart rant yet. sorry. i had a terribly busy day, and am now at ben's locked out of my house *sniffle* i can't get back in until my parents get home. which won't be until like... 11. it's terribly sad. i *could* go get my notebook and type it right now, buti'm waiting for rob to call me. on ben's phone... but he apparently forgot the number. grr.

fab stuart show tonight. FAB. i wrote a wonderful kick ass account of it. and i will put it up here soon. if only to prove to jared that my blog has real content on occasion. TOO tired now however. class from 8:30 til 10:20 tomorrow.... then i'm done. thaaaank the lord. sleep will be mine. oh, highlight of the evening, my car now has a bumper sticker that says "even the devil is god." think about it.

kyle, my pet... you MUST tell me about the stuart show!! and before i go see him tomorrow night! because he never tells me anything. he gets all silly. i am leaving town at 6:10... and i will briefly be home at like.... 5:40-6:00... i'll be online then. and prolly a little earlier in the day. blog it! or something! and.. you have a new LJ! what the? *flail*


i'm so tired. i need to sleep. agh. i have like a million bruises from my bike riding escapades. *sniffle* i do a lot of involuntary off roading. i'm off. gooooodnight.

first, to kyle... YAY stuart! and YAY free to be you and me!!!!!


i had a wonderful first and second day of college for those of you who are wondering. however, on monday i DID crash my bike into a wall. however it was a very minor crash, and everything's all good. i made one new friend (yay!) and we're meeting at the java house tomorrow to work one something for rhetoric together. goodtimes. the only downfall is i have a complete freak for one of my classes.... (masterpieces) she talks so weird... like, the sound of her voice makes me feel like i need to pop my ears. and she's like... centering the class around the WTC things... and like she's like "if you look at this picture, it kind of reminds you of islamic architecture! it's like... um... great... what does that have to do with anything? and she can't work her slide projectors... or the lights... or anything whatsoever. *sigh*


aside from the crashing into a wall (which wasn't even my fault. i mean REALLY, who parks their gigantic van in the middle of a bike path, c'mon!!) the bike thing is working out well. i love it tons.


i worked today, and it was good times. seth slipped on a wet floor and almost wiped out. his recovery was hilarious. he also tricked me into letting him leave early. *grrrr* we only had four closers. it was HELL. especially since i was not only doing bakery by myself, but doing cafe registers by myself as well. it was terrible. i didn't get out of there til like 10:45. grr. ok, i'm off, must call rob. byee!

i've been so busy i haven't blogged! aah! ok, since last time......


saturday night we went out for dinner to this woman's farm out by wellman. she's from france, and she used to be a culinary professor, and now she does private dinners. so like, she made four different kinds of pizza. all genuine french and italian. they were all so incredible, thin crust, very little cheese, very little toppings... but INCREDIBLE taste. if you ever go to europe, look at how much flavor is put in there food compared to here. it's so much LESS... but there's so much more flavor. major quality over quantity. and... dessert looked really good... but... oh, someone mis counted and we were two short. and being that there were lots of little kids and friends of my parents... i was lucky enough to be one of the two who was like "oh no, i relaly don't want any." though, stupid evil child who tortured the kitty all night chewed on his for like... five minutes before announcing he didn't like it. grr. this is the same kid who broke the greenhouse while we were there... and destroyed part of a pear tree. grr. (we were with a group of 14 people or so... like, friends of friends and such) alas. it was a sad end to the evening, and as childish and whiny as it may sound, it actually did ruin my night.


sunday. i WORKED! all day. first i went over to rob's for a pre work nap. (seriously, you may think i'ml ike "a nap. wink wink, nudge nudge" but... no, i really do just go over to his house so i can sleep in his comfy nice warm rob scented bed. with his fabulous yellow pillow.) work was crappy. i got there and this woman was bitching out one of the new girls over some pricing thing. and it was the lady being stupid, not melissa messing up. i made sure i told her that as soon as the customer left. i was like "you rang everything in exactly the way you should have, it was all right, that lady just doesn't know how to read/add." she's nice. i think she's a friend of seths. (i only say this because they both have clear creek amana shirts... so *shrug* they went to school together at least. and they seem to know eachother.) after work, we had a fabulous bread bash meeting. and i won a prize! (so did seth) we won microwave popcorn (woo.) and a five dollar blockbuster card. which i believe i will pass on to rob. since... the only time i go to block buster is with him. aaaaaaand... we got these dorky little "concept essence" cards. with like... panera's morals and golden rules and such. and doug referred to nelly as a bakery superstar, and i was TERRIBLY amused. and we made nelly pronouce her last name for us, because it's so pretty (she's from kenya? or... somewhere? i don't know why i say kenya, i just vaguely remember that... maybe it was belindah who was from kenya. *shrug*) and we tasted some of our new products, for the new celebration that starts on wed. woooo.


afterwards, a group of us realized we had NOTHING purchased for school starting. so we did some quick targeting. seth and rachel and i did a power shop for about twenty minutes. and we had a very indepth discussion about wide ruled vs. college ruled. binders and looseleaf vs. notebooks and folders... lined index cards vs. blank. good times. seth is all outfitted, and ready to try binders for the first time! yay seth. and we bought blank index cards for our grammar flash cards (seth doesn't know a THING about the english language, and he's trying to learn sign language... and it sin't working out so well. so i'm... making him flash cards)


then i drove home. had a nice long talk with dusty. good times. oh, dusty. i'll call you about this too... but just so i dont' forget... we need FOUR tickets for the seventh. oh, that reminds me, i got a drunken call from dusty last night. it woke me up. but we were both much more mellow than we have been in the past. because he was vegging on the balcony, and i was falling asleep standing up. i'm so stired now, but i stayed up late in order to talk to dusty, who ISN'T ONLINE YET. *grrrrr* i'm actually going to bed as soon as i finish typing/put top coat on my nails. yay. i'm off to bed... oh, yeah... and as of now... i'm getting stu cds for ben, amanda (maybe) and renata. amanda and ben are the only ones who owe me $$. yup. ok, i'm off, goooodnight

renata, my pet.... it's all sealed, and like, i meant to put it in the mailbox on my way in, and i didn't... so i have it right here. i guess i'll just waste this stamp *cries* so, i'll send you a stu cd and like... 8 bucks. woo! (hey, this reminds me of a previous transaction... will you promise not to be like "I NEVER GOT THE CD! RAWR, I HAAAAATE YOU!!! whilst being all emo? promise????) ah, anywho. i'm talking to emily, and she said something along the lines of "i should feel bad for stealing puppets from a depressed pirate who has been crushed by an evil voodoo talisman... but i don't." i was SO amused.


did i mention i nearly hit tim while driving the other day? i was so confused, because he's like... supposed to be in ames? well, it must have been right before he left. but, i was turning right onto the coralville strip, and he was turning left, one drive down from me. and like... he looked left and there wasn't anyone coming, but i was JUST pulling out, and he was pulling out, and like... it was confusing. i dont' think he saw me. how akward would that have been if we'd been in an accident? "uh. hi. how've you been? nice hat.." (he was wearing one of those feed caps... a red one.) prolly to cover up his terrible hair. which is growing out *sob* he was SO hot. why did he have to let it grow out? ok, i have to go. bye!

i had a wooonderful day today. rob called and woke me up, and we went oot and aboot. to the mall (where rob got a snazzy new pair of pants at old navy) and to iowa book... where i got some... snazzy anthropology books. and we saw paulina and kristen down town... and i was so excited to see them i nearly jumped into oncoming traffic (they were in a car, and we were walking...) but, i didn't, depsite they're encouragment. then i went to work. where... i had fabulous times. the highlight of the night has to be... jenny deciding to taste the nine grain bagel. "hey! i've never had nine grain, i wonder what it tastes like... *takes a bite* mm. wood. *throws it away*" i tasted it too... and i agree. it tastes like wood. ("the people who buy these must be bunnies!") bunnies don't eat wood... hrm. i bet bunny food tastes like wood though. and... wesley eats wood... since he's trying to escape... and such. oh, and seth took me cruising around the parking lot in his fabulous jeep (he just got it back from having the engine rebuilt... so he was all excited... and i have a big jeep fixation... so yeah.) and it was great. and i agreed to help him with his classes at kirkwood... since he was looking at his ASL book, and was like "hmm, what's a pronoun?"


after woork (didn't get done til eleven. damn truck ...unloaded the sygma order.... oh! which reminds me, we were taking trash out, and i almost ran over the truck driver with the boat. seth was like "RIIIIGHT! LOOOOOK OOOUT!" so... i did. and it was all ok. anywho) so, after work, i went to rob's where we hung out, and napped (mmmm napping *snore*) and, right before i left, i was all happy and radiant... and... and she was came on the radio!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was like "YAAAAAAAAAY!" it made me uber excited for the new stu cd. speaking of stu.. the new cd is entitled "the late stuart davis" and should be available at the quad cities show next thursday. i'll be going if you want to give me $$ and have you pick on up. oh, and i got like... a zillion (well, three) stuart related e-mails today. one that was just a response in our ongoing deeply interesting *snore* email conversation, and two from the new punkmonk street team in charge type guy! (well, one from stuart introducing said guy) so, i need to remember to e-mail stuart back about... school and other mundane stuff. and i need to email this rob guy (the new street team guy. another rob. but, i'm gonna call him rob cubed. at stuart's recommendation. it will help keep things clear.) yes. well, i'm very tired. an di work tomorrow. and i still have stuff to do before bed. goooodnight my loves.

today... i bought books! aaah, they're so exspensive. but i guess i can't actually complain... since i just charged them to my u-bill... and my dad's going to pay it. i got all the books i need for my masterpieces class... and the book i need for my theatre craft class (oh my god, it's SO awesome) and... i looked for the books i need for my society and culture class. (i also got high fidelity... which i just happened to see... and wanted... so yeah.) then i worked. it was boring. but tomorrow's gonna rock. we have a GREAT group of closers, we're gonna have a blast.


i really didn't do much today. just books. oh, and like... the IMU ramp (aka hell) was SO crowded. it took at least a half hour to get out. and i was only actually parked there for like... 35 minutes. so i had to pay extra... because the line to get out was SO long. crraaaaappy. i would have just walked from my dad's but i was really tired. so i actually drove there. baaad idea. next time there will be walking. most definitely. ok, i'm gonna go read high fidelity and go to sleep. bye.

abi my dear, i have a break from 11:20 until 1:30 M and W, and i'm free from 10:20 on every friday. so, we can eat lunch around 11:20 - 12:30 if you have that time free.... i hope so! yay!


and kyle! yay! i'll e-mail him and tell him that my beloved toast twin is coming to the ann arbor show. make sure you go up and talk to him, he's SO great and fun to talk to. yaaay!!!!!


and now, for my day. i went to house on the rock with erin and and nate. i had TONS of fun. ok, first off... quotes.


*driving down the road, random construction guys standing on side of road...*
nate: HEY! that's my uncle!!
(it actually was... i think... crazy.)


me: erin!! stop here! i want fresh eggs!!
erin: i KNEW you'd want fresh eggs.
~re: a farm offering sweet corn and eggs, and all sorts of stuff.~


"HEY! this is where the holy ghost credit union is! score!"
~me, upon realizing we were in dubuque~


"heeey, you NEED a dale earnhardt marble!"
~nate, in an antique shop, with TONS of dale earnhardt marbles... and evil bible thumper people who glared at us the whole time.~


random sign: "need a lift? call jesus!"
someone...: it makes him sound like a taxi company...


"we could eat at the pizzeria... AKA venezuala"
~there was a sign for a pizzaria... but erin thought it said venezuela....~


"cat fish for sale - country charm beauty salon"
~a sign... in a yard... of a home salon thing... i found it amusing.~


"more shrines and gift shop in back"
~sign at the grotto in dickeyville~


ok, so first we drove to wisconsin. making minor detours to some antique shops, and attempting to go the grotto in dickeyville (we got confused and ended up driving around a bank for awhile....) then we fiiiiinally got there, and went in, and it was SO cool. i like... retraced the steps they took in American Gods... it was AWESOME. aaand, there were all these little mechanical things... and they had a couple alice in wonderland ones! and they moved when you pushed a button! it was SO cool. and there was a room of armour, and it had like... 3D war scenes... with mannequins in armour and such... and there was a WAR ELEPHANT!! it was stepping on someone. and like, throwing someone wiht it's trunk. and a war dog. it was eating someone's arm. and they both had really cool armor. it was neat. and we saw the carousel, and it made us all dizzy, just watching it. and we just went everywehre. and it was SO cool. and like, we all wanted to get shrunk so we could live in the doll houses. i can't even begin to describe it all. we took lots of pictures, i'll post highlights of them, along wiht more stories of the fun we had.


on the way home we wanted to go to a mall we'd seen a sign for... so we got lost a few times, and found it... and it was like... a grocery store. and a radio shack. that was SO exspensive, and didn't even have anything in it. and like... a manicure place... and that was the whole mall. we were SO amused. but there were TONS of people there. crazy. aaand we stopped in dubuque and rode the elevator trolley things up and down the hill. and lookd at this BEAUTIFUL bed and breakfast, and looked for nancy drew books... aaand tried to get ice cream, but failed. and we ended up going to the grotto in dickeyville, and it was SO funny. it was like...crazy. i loved the "more shrines in back!!" sign. heeehe. and there was like... a whole shrine to christopher columbus... and... there was a statue outside the crazy religious school that was there... of like... a lady getting reading to hit a kid. i was like "how welcoming!" but yeah, we had much fun. OMG!! i totally forgot the rainstorm! we got caught in a monsoon!! we couldn't seee, and we should have just stopped on the side of the road, like you're supposed to do when you can see enough to drive... but like... the road was flooding, so we didnt' want to stop. adn then a TREE (well, a little branch) hit the windshield... and it was scary. but an adventure nonetheless. ok, erin, nate, remind me if i missed anything, i'm off to bed for now. night!

i'm officially registered for classes! i got my ui student id (GREAT picture! yay!) looked at books that i have to buy on thursday... and... such! classes, i'm taking accelerated rhetoric, masterpieces: art and cultural paradigms, introduction to the study of society and culture, and theatre craft. 14 semester hours. i only have one class (rhetoric at 3:30-5:20) on tuesdays and thursdays... and i'm done by 2:20 at the latest every day. i do have an 8:30 class once a week (discussion for masterpieces) and a 9:05 class two days a week. ... so three days a week i have to get up bright and early. and... one day a week, extra bright and early. i think i'll prolly end up working tuesday and thursday mornings. oh, but fridays, i'm done at 11:20, so i can make trips to mankato with jenny to see jessica! woooo!


stuartdavis.com has been entirely redone... but... i hate to say it.... it's crappy as all hell. maybe it'll get better. i hope so at least. maybe i should get my ass in gear and expand the stuart section... erin and i bitched about the crappiness of it for quite some time. when i first saw it i was like "NEAT!" but then... i looked at the top part... and just at the layout... and how everything's all mismatched and accidentally overlapping... and i was sad. *sigh*


hey! is travis who left a comment kismet's travis? i should ask kismet. or i could e-mail travis and ask him. oh there's so many options!


oh hey, erin and i are going book shopping on thursday, so if there's anyone who would like to/needs to go book shopping, feel free to come along. oooh hey, Iba, my darling... i would LOVE to have lunch with you whenever your'e down town. what class are you taking? which building? etc etc? yeah.


i went to walmart today, because the chair at my desk broke. so i found a new chair... super cheap... but whatever... and like, the only one there is the display. so i pushed it around for awihle (with allie in it) and then eventually found someone who worked there, and wasl ike "can i just take the display?" and they were like "yup." and the guy at the register was like "lemme guess, you're a junior!" and i was like "ha, high school or college?" and he's like "college, i can see your ui id" (i had my little mesh wallet out, and i'd just gotten it so it was in view) and i was like "hahhhaaaaahahahaa, no. freshman." and it was amusing.


i'm gonna go to sleep. i'm still all happy and full from dinner at erin's house. it was the first like... real meal i've eaten in ages. erin made fun of me and allie (i was watching allie today, so she came everywhere with me... except registration. she stayed home and watched my friends dvds for all of that.) anywho, allie and i are like "amazed by how good the food is., and we're like "mmmm this is SO good erin." and she's like "it's nothing special..." but allie and i don't eat real food. our house is like... macaroni. and that's it. so... real food was exciting.


ok, bedtime. i'm off to wisconsin tomorrow and such. gotta get my beeeeeeeeeauty sleep.

yayayayaay!!! renata's buying me a pink aeropostale sweatshirt!!!! aaaah!! (well, it's grey with pink writing...) anywho, i can't even describe how thrilled i am. i will send her $$ tomorrow, and i will send henrie his poster (i haven't done it yet, because erin and i want to send it from copy works in the middle of the night (it's a long story)


so, tomorrow's registration (crappy registering like... an hour before classes start. grr.) i so totally have no idea what the hell's going on. paulina told me where stuff is, and when it starts.... so i'm better off now that i was earlier. aaanywho, today.


i got up at 8, moved a table downstairs, brushed my teeth and washed my face... sat down on the couch and fell asleep again for like... an hour. woke up at like... 9, and was like "CRAP!!" but i got all ready and got to work at ten. yay for rob picking me up and taking me to work. yaaaaay. so it was all good. i was on salad line, but tom was working, and he was all stressed and crazy. so i was like "grrr." and jessica was stuck out front. which sucks, because you have to clean up after everyone. ask me to demonstrate how people eat at panera. i did it for jessica, and she laughed for like an hour.


then erin picked me up, and we went to the theatre to get her check, and then to whiteys, then to subway, then home, then i remembered i left stuff at panera, so we went back to the mall, then back home, where we cleaned my room, then we had the mary kay party. and we all looked so pretty. and erin needs to buy the foundation, because it looked SO natural and pretty. like, wow. and i liked how it looked, (we all did like, the same colors and such... it was neat) but like... it was 100% natural. no sparkles or anything. i felt weird.


and andrea and i went to visit aric at whiteys. and he made us a banana shake. and it was tasty. and i spilled it on my shoe. and aric darts me *rawr* and... we had fun. andrea ate almost a whole pint of ice cream. it was cool. then we saw bridget, and she was like "we're going to austin powers!" so we decided to go to. and on the way to the car, this crazy drunken bum was yelling at us. and andrea was on the phone and she's liek "a bum's yelling at me, i've gotta go." and we thought he was going to eat our ice cream (we'd just thrown it away) but hee didnt. so then we sped out to the mall, and got tickets from maren (thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaank you maren) and it was cool.


and that was my day. woo!

i've been organizing stuff. and i came across a box of all my random rent stuff. like... i was gonna make a scrap book, then i got lazy. so all i have are photo albums, and a big box of double pictures, and TONS of playbils, and notes from actors, and autographs and everything. well, i'm looking through it... and i realize how lucky i've been. things and people that inspire me have always been so accessible. i mean like... stuart, and curtis, and rent, and all the other rent actors that i think are just incredible... i've never been denied a chance to see them, or talk to them. iv'e seen rent 30 some times, and it's meant something new to me each time. i've seen stuart like... 13 times... *thinks* no, fifteen... and he's always been nothing but nice and open to me. and after like... four shows... he got to know my parents, he randomly e-mails me to tell me that the world can't live without my radiance... he's introduced me to BEAUTIFUL wonderful people (hi kismet!). so many people have musicians and such who they respect and admire, and they never get the chance to even see them, let alone talk with them on a regular basis, or plan secret surprise attacks against them, involving certain songs... (no stuart, we aren't planning a surprise attack... pay no attention to any of that... ^_~). *sigh* i've never really realized how wonderful my life has been when it comes to that aspect. when i told curtis i wanted to be an actress, he said "do it!" it's incredible to have the actor you respect most tell you that you can do it, and ... just... wow. life is good. if i ever get all bitchy and depressed (read... the next time i get all bitchy and depressed...) remind me of this. i have no right to bitch and moan about a lot of stuff. i've been very blessed. i have wonderful friends, i've had a great life thus far... and i'm the only one who can control my life... so, i *am* taking control and... it's good. and i'm happy. and ihave to get up in 6 hours. but it's ok. because i'm happy.

i overslept and was late to work today! i'm such a baaad pantera employee. (and yes, i realize i was schedule at three... and any normal person would be out of bed by then....) aaanywho. there weren't enough closers, but i went to a movie instead of closing, because i didn't have to close, i was off at like... 8, but i stayed til nine. i left mostly because seth was harrassing me. like, really harrassing me, and it made me all crazy, and i had to leave. grrrr.


i have to work tomorrow at 11 (and it's almost three now. wheeeee) but, i'm off at 4. (i hate how i volunteered to help on saturday, and jan was like "oooh great! i'll just schedule you for 8 hours! so i had to go and beg to have it sqitched to five hours. i didn't want to actually work... i was just offering to help out over the rush. and i made that clear. grrrr.


i bought a cover thingy (sorta) for my futon today. it's niiiice. and it's soooo pretty. i need to iron it though. i also bought some flip flops at target. because after work, i changed clothes... and realized i only had my work shoes. and i was like "CRAPPY!!!" and so jenny and i trekked over to target. and i got flip flops. and they were five dollars, and they're veeeeeery pretty. and i bought another purse. because... i have one just like it (the mary poppins bag) but i wanted it in black. so yay!


my room is going to be beautiful when i'm done with it. beeeeeeeeeautiful. i'm on a big decorating/interior design kick right now. like, i want to get rob to repaint his room in his new place... because... his new place... has potential to be really fucking cool. but as of now, it's a dump. NOTHING in the kitchen works. and now that i can cook, i want to cook for him! and i can't! so like... yeah. his room needs to be painted. and my room needs to be organized/redecorated. it'll be greeeeeeeeeeeat.


i didn't get ahold of rob today at all. he's prolly oot and aboot. i went oot and aboot with jenny and jessica (saw xxx again) and then i hung out with erin and nate for a bit. HEY! that reminds me! erin and nate and me are going to wisconsin to house on the rock on wednesday. so if you wanna go with us, you should tell me! because we have one extra seat! (two... if we want three people in the back. which i'm willing to do.) i want rob to come, but he has to work. i'm gonna ask if there's ANY way he can switch with someone or something... so he has wed. off instead of mon. OH! monday! that reminds me! my mom is having a mary kay party on monday night. if you are a girl, and i know you... you're invited (heck, even if i don't know you... and you wanna come, let me know!) it'll be much fun, and you get to get all made up and pretty! i should call emily, maybe casey'll wanna come *evil grin*


ok, i'm off for now. a little more room cleaning then it's bedtime for megan.

so. let's see. today i woke up at like nooon. and my throat hurt SO bad. not the way it's been hurting for the past couple weeks... but like... a sore infected hurt... (as opposed to the dry cracking hurt....) so, i'm like "oh well." and i take a shower. then, i'm lounging around, since it's my day off. and i think "it's getting kind of hard to swallow..." then... "it's getting kind of hard to breathe..." so i call my dad. and he's like "how should I know what you should do!? call your mother." so i call my mom. and she's like "come meet me in my lab" (my mom's a clinical laboratory scientist at university hospitals and clinics.... essentially, she's the person who does all the analyzing when they draw your blood and stuff.) so, i go... and she calls and is like "nevermind, go to FCC (family care clinics... which is where my doctor(s) work) i'll meet you there" so i go there instead (it's like... a block away... since... it's all in the hospital...) and i go and get seen my this dorky med student... who was actually really sweet. very very dorky though. and he's like "um.... i... it's... swollen. yes. your throat is swollen" and i actually said "good work there tonto" and he laughed. and i was like "sorry. but i knew that." and he was like "yeah..." and went to get an actual doctor. then... THEN... in walks in insane german doctor who i had so much trouble with when i went in for my ulcerlative colitis thing... and she's like... evil... grrrr. and i'm like "aaah!" and my mom's like "ah, i'd like a different doctor please." and she's like "no no, i have to check his work, he is my student today." so... she's like ... looking in my ears and she's like "nope, no infection!" and i'm like "i'm here because my throat is bothering me..." and she's like "aaah, we'll test for strep." so she does. and it's negative, and she's like "take some ibuprofen!" and leaves. and i'm like *sigh* so then ANOTHER doctor comes... and is like "you need this breathing thing to make the swelling go down!" so, i sit with a breathy thing. it'sl ike... a giant inhaler. that you don't have to take puffs of. so like... a nebulizer really. only REALLY strong. so it's all ok. my throat stops swelling. it's something to do with a random infection... but it's fixed, and not contagious, so don't anyone worry.


then, i go to paaaantera. to get my check. then i go and buy this WONDERFUL skirt at target. it's looong. and denim, and i love it. and i looked at dance shoes (i need jazz shoes for any acting work i might be doing. i have a pair, but they're in worse shape than hamm's old jazz shoes.) but scheels only had slip on ones, and i wanted lace up ones... so i didn't get any. and i bought allll sorts of great stuff. spent under $50... but i got LOTS of stuff. gooood deals.


then i came home. and watched part of boiler room. and it was good. then rob called... and i went over to his house... and we went to hy vee, then we went back to his house... and discussed stuff for a long time. and all is good, and well, and i'm happy. then we went and met erin at perkins... and much fun was had by all, even though nate was like... sleeping on the table, and rob was filling glasses with cream and sugar and nothing else... and greg had to like... flail about crazily to get the waitress's attention... good times. then rob and i went back to his place and watched jimmy neutron, until i almost fell asleep, then i came home. so, if you are confused about... the me and rob situation... we are back together as of tonight. hopefully that is unconfusing.


i made steak and eggs just now. i was so hungry. and i've been teaching myself how to cook. (steak and eggs may sound vaguely complicated... but all i did was fry and egg, and reheat some steak, and like... saute it... but i made the egg without breaking the yolk!!) so yeah. it was very tasty. all that's left is some egg yolk which is congealing away on my plate. and now i'm going to go to bed. because i'm tired. and i have to go to verizon tomorrow morning... then i have to work. then i get to go hang out with rob. yay!

i was just reading a really old im, and it was from when emily was here (cousin emily) and like, i say (in the im) "emily's making me sing the blues..." and like, i suddenly remembered exactly what we'd been doing. i was online, and emily was alternatly chasing the cat... and conditioning the cat ("he's soft now!") then, she got one of our guitars and was playing with it, and found like... a bluesy chord. and was like "c'mon yomega! sing the blues!" and was literally forcing me to sing the blues with her. gooooodtimes. i miss emily *sniffle*

worked 10-4 today. goodtimes. only not really. nic stopped by to see me, and other nic (who works at panera, but isn't my nic.) got sent home sick, so i couldn't tell my fascinating nic/zac coincidence story to them (they both have brothers named zac... craaazy) ANYwho. went to pier one.... if i get hired there.. MAN, i'm going to like... spend all my money on dishes. and rugs, and stuff. i'd love it though. i'll have to move out (but not by myself!! aaaah!! *quietly has panic attack at thought of living alone*) so that i can actually have use for dishes and such.


i bought a new REM cd a few days ago, and it is FAB. i dunno if it's the newest or not... it's called 'up' and i heart it. i also bought a new purse. it's ubertrendy.... which is... eh. but, it's SO nice, and it's so tiny, but it's like a mary poppins bag, i could put my lamp in there if i needed. i get paid on friday. i'm going to buy some new jazz shoes to start wearing while rehearsing monologues and such... since that's what i'll be wearing... i want to wear them now. i tend to be less clumsy when i have some sort of dance shoe on. it's like, a subconcious thing. and, i'm going to buy a snazzy black shirt to wear for auditons (trivia fact: i always wear all black at auditions. *always* have and always will.... it makes my hair look blonder, and my skin look lighter, and i look prettier under the lights (with the right subtle make up...) and that's the story of why i always wear black.)


i fell asleep when i got home at like 7. and slept til 8. then, went to go see a movie with my dear friends. who ditched me. so no movie was seen. so i came back home and fell asleep again. at like nine. and i had a REALLY weird dream, involving the office at panera, and nudity. crazy shit. and then i had ANOTHER weird dream, just involving panera and panera people. then i woke up at midnight and thought it was morning... and was confused. oh, oh, back to work today. seth didn't show up. and he's tooootally not gonna get in trouble. *grr* but i guess he had a valid reason... stupidity. (noo. i'm being mean...) and we were hella busy, adn there were all these sorority girls running around. and i was scared. and i was like "IT'S WEDNESDAY YOU MORONS! GO HOOOME!" it was like a saturday for about an hour. then i went to target, to get my snazzy purse, then to pier one... maybe i went to pier one first... i dont' remember. but i saw jenny at target. and it was good times. (i heard her laughing, and i'm like "jenny?! jenny evan?! J.E. where are you!?" she has a very distinct laugh. i actually had an ok day. i feel good... i feel great... i feel wonderful... (cookie to whoever knows where that's from...)


uh... tomorrow's thursday, and i don't work. it's like... the only thursday i've ever had off without requesting it offf. craaaazy stuff. i'm actually sleepy, despite all my naps.

seth hit me in the head with a roll today. i dunno what it is about people feeling the need to unleash violence at me.






I'm Diana, which ambiguous dyke are you? Quiz by Turi.



yay me! work today was strange. i may have bonded with seth... i'm concerned. (he was like "are you still going out with your boy from the toystore?" and i was like "*pause* *sniffle* nooo" and i like... left... and then later, he was like "noooo, c'mon, tell me what happened" so i did, and he was like "that's pretty crappy..." and... he like... flirted with me more than usual all night. and in a more serious, less trying-to-piss-me-off sort of way... and he kept trying to cheer me up....very odd.)


i'm sleepy, i have to work a day shift tomorrow. and i'm anxious. why hasn't he called me yet? *sigh* he said soon. "soon." grr. well, i'm going to bed. because... i want to look nice tomorrow. and i have to wake up early... and... that makes looking nice a lot harder. so, goodnight.

heeeey, know how i was complaining about getting hit on?? well, today at the mall, these guys were whistling at me... and one of them came over and like, put his arm around me, and wouldn't let go... and he eventually did. then, he sees me again... and like, grabs me around the waist, and WON'T let me go... and is all calling me sweetie and baby... and finally ryan got to work and saw it and saved me... (yay for ryan being big. "megan, i've had it up to here, and i'm 6'2''.") so, yeah. then, i told the girls i work with and they're like "*imitating me* i'm megan, all the boys like me... pooooor me." and i'm like... uh. no. that guy was like, pushing me around, wouldn't let go... not cool. it pissed me off a lot.


in other news... ash accidentally hit me in the head with the handle of the mop. THEN ryan threw a bag of bowls and jenny and she didn't catch them, and they hit me in the head... THEN a bunch of stuff fell off a shelf... and hit me in the head. it was a very eventful day at pantera.


and... kyle finally yelled at me and pestered me long enough....





toast twins forever!!!

i was just reminded of this time in a bar... when a guy came up to me and said "wow, you're really pretty." and i said "yeah. i know." and walked off. in hindsight.... i'm a bitch. but... (not to whine...) but... do you know how tiring it is when that's what everyone says? when people first started telling me what they thought of my appearence... i loved it. i felt so beautiful. but now... it's like "yeah, so... i'm blonde, i'm skinny. that's all." *sigh* no one wants to hear me whine "i'm sick of people telling me i'm pretty" so ... i'll just shut up. sorry.

"nothing about me is original. i am the combined effort of everyone i have met."


"the one you love, and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."


"the word love tastes like earwax when i think it about them"


i'm feeling all this and then some.

uuuuugh. i just ate like... so much. two bowls of cereal, to sodas, some peanuts... some cheetos. a brownie, some pudding. i'm going to be sick. why why why is eating such an issue wiht me!?!? why can't i be like a normal person who just eats breakfast lunch and dinner!? i'm losing weight. LOSING WEIGHT. aaagh. i hate it when the girls at work call me three pounder. it's not like i try to look like this.


i really do feel sick. yuck.


i went to sleep at 1am. well, i (re)read trainspotting for like a half hour. then i tried to sleep. but i kept crying. and it was awful. so then i got up and went and ate everything in the house. and now i feel like i'm going to throw up. this really sucks. why can't life be easy?

since last post: quite a bit. i don't care guys. if i'm gonna go crazy and anorexic bulimic... someone'll figure it out when i get all bitchy. i can't keep track, and i'm like.. binge eating, and it grosses me out to reread what i've eaten. so... yes. now, i'm eating some pudding and like... my third dr pepper of the day.


another very long talk with rob. still no definite outcome. fine me in a couple days.... if i'm around... we'll assume it's ok. if i've randomly disappeared and am not speaking to anyone, or am on one of my hiding screennames (renata knows which one... she can watch for me...) we'll know that i'm not ok.


i talked to henrie for awhile tonight. i LOVE henrie. i didin't even get to spend much time with him in KC. but he was so great. and he's so fun now. he let me rant and rave to him about everything. and, i bought him a radio head poster. did i say that earlier? well, sal's music emporium is going out of business (tragic. it reeeeally is.) so, i went and bought all his prince cds, and some REM, and the smashing pumpkins boxed set... and a couple trainspotting posters... (not the biggest fan of the movie... only seen it twice... but i LOOOOOVE the book.) and, there were a couple GIANT radio head posters... and i just mentioned it to henrie, and he's like "i love radiohead!!" so i was like "well..." and went and got one of them. it's like.. for amnesiac? or soemthing? i think it's a cool poster and i don't even like radiohead.


i'm talking to luke right now. i heart luke. he's like... caleb... only not a stoner. and a little smarter... and... stuff. and here, instead of LA (i heart you caleb, you will always be my pseudo big brother....)


i don't really have anything else to say. i'm... tired. i'm confused. i'm kinda lonely.

I am TRUE BLUE Madonna // find out what Madonna you are here.

By Carly @ x-girl.co.uk

since last post: some toast (i heart you kyle!)


henrie! i forgot to write down your address!!! you need to tell me it again, otherwise i'll be stuck with a gigantic radiohead poster... and i'd rather you have it... since you're who i bought it for.


that's the only reason i posted. was in hopes that henrie would see it and e-mail me, or perhaps jessie would see it and tell henrie.. or something. yeah.

in repsonse to my dear toast twin, who wants to know why i'm posting what i've eaten... becuase i have a history of really bad eating disorders. and when i'm sad, i generally stop eating. and i'm feeling really down. i'm fine when i'm with people, but alone i feel like crap. so, a few of my friends who read my blog daily requested i keep track. i'm doing ok, which is surprising. but... i haven't actualy eaten anything since my last post... see, actually typing "i haven't eaten" makes me realize i need to. *nod*


rob was just here. we had a really long talk.

since last post: a dr. brown's soda, popcorn, three rice krispie treats with frosting, two cups of pepsi... yuck. binge eating anyone? ew.


i have such a bad headache... oh god.

since last post: a handful of m&ms. a cream soda.




these are three separate things... how confusing....


1 minute ago: reading the liner notes of "the immaculate collection" (madonna)
1 hour ago: hanging up my trainspotting poster
1 day ago: working
1 month ago: i think renata was here...
1 year ago: i think i was in colorado....


Words to decribe the current situation: confusing, terrible, scary.
Things I want: a prince cd, a certain person, some more towels.
Songs listened to: "crazy for you" and "material girl" (tracks 6, and 5 on the immaculate collection...)
Things accomplished: it's my first day off in forever... so, nothing.
Windows open: just blogger.
Things around the computer: umbrella lamp, mini garbini trash can full of pens, picture of me and renata, a picture of me and stuart, a picture of me an erin, a can of tuna.
Lyric: "good manners and bad breath will get you nowhere" (elvis costello)
People online: i'm not on aim right now... but i'll look... 9
People away: 4
People idle: 4 (but not the SAME four....)
Random: i'm not wearing make up today *gasp*


[Spell your name backwards] Eklhob Nedlog Neelhtak Yram Nagem
[Where do you live?] iowa city.
[Describe yourself in three words] not too bright.
[Who is your worst enemy?] ladybugs, kristin. (does anyone remember when i tried embracing me enemies? because something clancy told me? and it backfired and like.. ruined a whole week?)
[If you could have ANY animal for a pet, what would it be?] a big fluffy persian. or a beagle.
[Have you ever used a spork?] yup
[Do you even know what a spork is?] have i filled this out before??
[What is the latest you've ever stayed up?] like, 48 hours.
[Ever been to Belgium?] yes.
[[What's your favourite coin?] quarters
[wallet] a little wire mesh thingy
[brush] it's big and grey and i think it cost like... $25. but my mom bought it, and it rules.
[toothbrush] it's clear, and it has purple grips. i also have a green electric one, but i dont' like it.
[jewelry worn daily] pablo! (aka my watch), my 69 bracelet, my 'meg' ring, my class ring, and ring i bought with rob at arts fest...
[pillow cover] light green
[blanket] well, all my blankets match my pillow cover. but, then i have my blankies... and they're about that color too actually... but really raggy and old.


[coffee cup] "ladybug ladybug fly away home" (but it has pens in it), my rent one... and... one that says "shut the fuck up"
[sunglasses] they're black with rhinestones.
[underwear] blue
[shoes] well, i'm not wearing any... but the last ones i wore were my birks.
[nail polish] sparkly
[handbag] well, i have a clear one... that i love... and a blue hello kitty bag... which i've been using lately.
[favourite top] hmmmmmmm my new rent baby tee?
[favourite pants] my gap modern flares. they're the sexiest pants ever.
[cologne] for boys: curve, or lucky. for girls: gap pink ^_^
[cd in stereo right now] madonna.
[tattoos] none.
[piercings] three in each ear.
[current music] open your heart (madonna...)
[wearing] old ugly baggy jeans, a pink tank top
[hair] blonde, a little past my shoulders
[makeup] none right now... crazy shit..
[in my mouth] my tongue...
[in my head] not much
[hearing] air conditioner.
[wishing] and hoping and praying
[after this] *shrug* i have to meet the panera girls at bennigans at some point...

since last post: entire giant bag of doritos.


the movie was actually quite good. they were drinking absinthe at the beginning, and i applauded my cleverness in noticing it. aaah, let's see. i actually really enjoyed it. it was exciting, and vin diesel looks like.... a really bad ass buff stuart. (not that you aren't bad ass and buff, stu... but... vin diesel's a little more so.) so, i kept amusing myself being like "oh no! stuart had better machine gun down all those guys.... and such." but, i don't think realstuart could ever be all "must kill zillions of people now." yeah... there was a part when vin diesel was like... crying because he was all sad... and it was like... not tacky. it actually made me sad. so congrats on the good acting. it was fun. really. there were parts that were insanely corny... like, american flag parachute... and... stuff. and samuel l. jackson's scar looked totally fake... but, aside from all the terrible hoakyness... it was fun. and lots of explosions... and lots of hotvindiesel (yay shaved heads! even thouhg, like, you could TOTALLY see where he was really bald and where it was just shaved.) hm. if tim were to be really bad ass... he could be sorta like vin diesel too. but, more in the dopeyness aspect, and slow to answer... and just overall a little stupid... that aspect. if that made sense.


fun was had by all in the time before the movie. thomas was going to make out with me and erin... but then he didn't. and we had good times. apparently thomas and nate had plans to make out during the movie.... but... then thomas was gonna make out with US instead... but... stuff. yeah. amusing. oh, one line in the movie.... "bitches, come!" as the big head honcho guy brings in all the prostitutey girls... and thomas was like "that would RULE!" and i'm like "OH, i see how it is... erin and i aren't good enough anymore, FINE!" goodtimes.


i needed today, i had fun. work was fun, ryan and everyone was nice to me because they knew how sad i was... and ryan caught 44 flies. then he put them all through the dishwasher.... and only one survived. so he let that one go. yeah. the end. i need to sleep. erin's here now, she's spending the night... did i already mention that? huh? oh well.

since last night: 20oz dr. pepper, half a turkey sandwich, 1 bag of low fat panera chips, half a peanut butter sandwich, 1 chocolate brownie (uuugh).


*sigh* i'm going to a screening at the movie theatre. i don't really wanna go.. but i'm hoping i'll have fun. yeah. i'll be home later.

since last night: 1 piece of thin crust cheese pizza, an almond brownie, a jolly rancher sucker. three glasses of pepsi (with pizza), 20oz dr pepper, 1 latte with three sugars, one lemonade


today was really difficult at work. i didn't want to talk to anyone at all, i was so slow moving, and i nearly cried like... four times. for awhile i caught flies in cups and put lids on them ... i have three or four really funny stories about work yesterday, but i don't feel like relaying them... maybe later. today was just crappy though. i went to target and bought some stuff in hopes of making myself feel better, but it really didn't work. i'm not hungry at all, i just don't want to eat. last night i was really violent. things were broken, bad things... stuff. yeah. i'm contemplating whether to publish this or not. i want to just post it... it's like i feel like i don't want to share anything... but i do. maybe i'll wait until i feel better, then publish all the posts i wrote.... maybe i'll just publish this... i don't know...

i... am having problems. full out nervous break down... i'm sorry. just... give me at least a few days.

and, in addition to that last post... i loved signs. just btw. like, i've been waiting for it to come out for SO long. you can't even imagine. joaquin phoenix. yay! and it was so good. i loooved it. i'm prolly gonna go again. i had SO much fun with everyone. it felt like junior high. a big group of us hanging out. goooodtimes. i haven't had so much fun at a movie in like... years. not since junior high, in fact. hehe. i heart zak and andy and rayn and jessica and jenny and andy... and EVERYONE! *sends out love vibes*

ok, so, i SAID i had a lot to blog, and i don't want to be a liar... so i'll start with yesterday... sunday (it's technically tuesday now... but... whatever.)


so, sunday, i work at noon. and i was all tired... but whatever. it was the first day that wasn't tax free... so i was hoping maybe it'd be all nice and not crazy. so i get there at noon, and i'm hanging out, talking to people... i'm in bakery with a new girl... who's not the brightest crayon in the box... but whatever. and ryan's there... only he's SO hungover... and like, still drunk. he was hilarious. like, he went to get a drink of water and knocked water cups EVERYWHERE. and he's standing making sandwiches and he's like "man, i'm so sick. i'm gonna puke. and if i puke, i'm not running to the bathroom, i'm gonna puke EVERYWHERE. then we'll have to close. yeah." and mike didn't show up... so he's fired... and stuff. so seth came in to help, and he's like, rummaging in his stuff, and he gets out a little bag of like... contact solution and deoderant etc etc... and i't like...one of those doctors bags, from fisher price... that like, little kids play with. it was SO cute. it was a little black fisher price doctors thing... i laughed so hard. i heart seth. so... work was CRAZY. there were people still trying to come in when we shut the gates. the second the clocks hit six, i went to each register and closed it. and was like "sorry, registers are down, we can't do anything. sucks to be you." then i put in madonna music, cuz i was SO sad and upset and stressed from the day, and ryan and seth are screwing around and using the mic's to turn the music off... and i yelled at them, and they fooled around... but they stopped. then josh comes out and starts doing it. and i FLIP out. i'm like "josh you are a fucking moron. it was kind of funny when seth and ryan did it... but then they stopped. there is NO call for you to come out and do it and act like you're the most hilarious person alive. you aren't funny and no one likes you, fuck off." so he starts acting like he's the shit and making fun of me... and i almost start crying... not because josh was effectively mean... but because i was so frusterated and angry and trying to keep myself from physically hurting him... so seth tells him to fuck off... and i go tell jan, and she comes out and yells at josh, and is like "i'm SO fucking glad this is your last night here!" yeah. oh, i got new shoes when i was on break. brown platform tennis shoes... with like... cordouroy... they ROCK. so i was all frolicking about in my new shoes when we were done closing, and seth snuck up behind me and put me in a head lock... and i was terribly confused... but then ryan was like "hey, we're gonna be late" so seth let me go, and left. and i took jenny home, then i went home, and showered and changed,then i went back to the mall (target actually, since the mall was closed) and met up with jenny and jessica... then we all ran into zak and everyone, who we were going to the movie wiht... so we all went over to the theatres and got our ticket and got popcorn, and went and sat down... we were like.. the second people there... but it nearly osld out... it was soooo full. yeah, we went to see 'signs' btw. jessica and i were througouhly freaked out. like we held onto eachother the entire movie. jenny didn't get scared though. and i dont' think any of the boys did. i was TERRIFIED soooo many times.... it was reeeeally funny too though. like.. oh my god. i laughed so hard. so, after that we all went to zak's... oh! i saw tyler corbett in the parking lot after the movie. i love him! (tyler is the older brother of my bestfriend from kindergarten to about 9th grade. so, i've known him for a loooooong time. awww tylie.) yeah, zak's house... goodtimes.


today.. i worked. the high point of working was when i completely bitched out three girls. they were all dressed up to go malling. and ordered ic drinks. and like... there weren't any grande cups... so jessica made them all largo. because... there wasn't anything else to do. so, one of them bought a largo, and the other two had grandes, adn they each had a different kind (which is a bitch, cuz you have to make them all separate, adn do all this cleaning inbetween... it takes forever...) so, when they get them, she starts bitching about how she paid forty cents extra... so she should get more, and it's not fair. and i was like "there are two things i can do, i can either make you an extra smaller cup of ic stuff, or i can have a manager give you a refund. and she won't say ANYTHING except "i'm so upset about this!" and finally i'm like "LOOK. THERE ARE TWO OPTIONS..." and she starts bitching again and i'm like "fuck it. i'll get a manager, so you can get your goddamn forty cent refund." AND, she paid on a credit card... so... shit.. but when jennie does the refund, she doesn't tell her she paid with a credit card, so she gets cash back... which fucks up stuff for EVERYTHING. i swear to god... grr. i seriously bitched at them. and they were all going on about me while i was getting jenny, and i could hear them, there liek "man, she so needs to like, drop her attitude" etc etc. so i was in back, and i start telling luke m. about them, all loud "there's these three chubby fake baked bitches... look out there, you'll see them, the "faded" jeans, black shirts, big necklaces... nasty hair? see them?" and lukes liek "oh yeah, i see them." and luke's fairly hot. so it made me happy... yeah


ok. the end. i'm tired of blogging. kyle!! i heart you!!

"son of a BUICK LOVER!!!!"
~jenny~


oh god, i have so much to blog about. don't worry, i remembered to write it all down on napkins. i'm all set for a blog fest when i get home tonight... i'm at zak's house... everyone's playing video games and i'm hanging out. yeah cool beans/.

dude, i'm talking to kismet, cuz we're thinking about where we're gonna sleep in rockford when we go see stu. and i suggested camping, and the idea is TOTALLY growing on me, it would be SO much fun. dude. that's so happening.


went oot and aboot with luke tonight. goooodtimes. austin powers was JUST as funny the second time. i noticed little jokes. it was HILARIOUS.


i hung out wiht will for a bit too. cuz i ran into him at the movie.


work sucked. ....i know... late night... come home... what's that FROM!?!?!? *thinks* blink 182. hell yeah.


i'm so tired. and i wore myself out with that big ol post and quotes and such. so, if there are any quotes in there that are near and dear to you, you need to COMMENT!

yeaaah, so i didnt' go to bed. alas. i am now though. actually i'm gonna read. wooo bill bryson. i heart bill bryson.


i also heart stuart. his e-mails always make me smile. and for some reason they always inspire me to write a novel in response. seriously. stuart says "hi" and i respond with 18 pages of prose. it's crazy. might be helpful if i could fine tune it... and churn out research papers. dude, if stu asked me the essay question... i bet i'd just like... write the paper right then and there. that would rock, i'll have to talk to him about that. speaking of stu, one of my crazy relatives told me the other day that he used to tell my senile aunt that i was the messiah. like, when i was 7 or 8. which made me think of stu and his whole "the second coming will be in the form of a girl." (aka human girl, sexy messiah, etc.) hey, go to dream usher (under neeeeato in links or in my info on aim) and read the fabby interview. lalala.


i just found a journal from last summer. whenever i re-read stuff that i've written, i find myself HILARIOUS. like, my blog makes me laugh out loud when i read the archives. it confuses me so much, i'm like "what the helll?!! i don't talk like that, i'm not that witty!" alas.


random, and old news... but i'll just put this out there in case there's anyone who lives under a rock... but joey fatone (aka the member of nsync who's face is scratched out on all my cards and posters etc... he's also the one in the crazy futuristic warrior getup in the pictures on my folders from last year.... anywho.) is playing/will be playing mark. in rent. on broadway.... though, i watched a little video... and it looked like it might be ok. maybe this will actually be cool, and it will make me regret talking shit about him for so long.... *shrug* we shall see.


omg, i just found quotes in this old notebook... they're from maybe six monthes ago.... lol.


"oh dear god, you are laughing so hard that you are simeltaneously barking and snorting"
~heather... i think she was referrring to me.~


"all we want in life is to get head. *pause* a head.. to get ahead. doh."
~someone in AP english~


"i wonder what rosie o'donnell would be like on a date... i just had this image of her sitting across the table from me, in a nice restaurant, and flinging kooshe balls at me..."
~mistah k~


"it's long and limp"
~patrick r. in refference to something at the java house...~


"*reading from cosmo* this tall threat.... treat. tall treat. this tall treat is the least threatening..."
~kate~


random person #1: he was a bigot, a racist... what else?
RP #2: sexist.
RP #1: yes.
RP #3: was he ugly?
RP #1: prolly.
~i have no idea... but i'm pretty sure #1 was a teacher.~


hamm: *interupts self in middle of lecture* raleigh, i want you to grow up right now, so you can marry my daughter. god, you'd have such beautiful children...
mistah k: this WILL be on the test.


ms. VZ: it took us nearly two hours, but we DID manage to get into his house.
amos: so, you broke into william faulkner's house?
~discussing how long she waited in line to see william faulkner's old house... or something...~


danielle: did sherwin williams use this device in the poem we read yesterday?
ms. VZ: sherwin williams? ... OH sherwood.. sherwood anderson. yes.


ms. VZ: another example of hyperbole "when the salmon sing in the streets" now, when is this gonna happen!?
student : never. *nods and takes notes*
shobha (@same time as student): thursday.


"here's you're motivation. your duck has just eaten your last piece of cheese...."
~ben s. in acting and movement~


"GUYS!! quiet down! or, or... i'll come over there!! and... and... i'll come over there and... shake you!"
~mistah k~


"my shoe's untied! *pause* well, that's unacceptable."
~mistah k~


"revenge is the new pink!!"
~shobha, ap english~


me: my hat says "MEGAN RULES!"
luke: my hat says "luke y is a bitch." hmm.


"luke y. rocks my bread world!"


"if you hit john f. kennedy, you've gone too far."
~actually, directions how to get somwhere...there's a jfk ave, apparently~


"they were de-railed by a ground hog."


"holy ghost credit union.... drink pepsi!"
~an actual sign for an actual credit union in dubuque or somehwere.~

wooork. ha. at least everyone (almost everyone) left the mall around 10. so from 10 to 11... we were able to eat pretzels and preclose. i don't think i ever actually got to take a real break though. *sigh* tricia stabbed me in the elbow!! i almost died! (not really...) she was cutting something, and she turned, and like, bumped my elbow with the tip of her knife... it was hiiiiiilarious. i was trying to see if it actually cut me, and it was on my elbow, so i couldn't see it... and it was just all out amusing. and ryan was on registers, because he took my shift, and i was supposed to be on registeers... so yeah. and this lady took sooooo long deciding on the last thing/paying that ryan played with the condiment buttons until they took up two screens. it was hilarious. " a bacon turkey bravo, no cilantro, to carmelized onions, no roasted peppers, no avocado, no salt, to pepper, no peanut butter etc etc etc etc." we were like "what the hell?!" yeah. and around 10:30 we started to go crazy... and i came back from whiteys and like, jenny was sitting on the floor surrounded by cups, and jessica was laughing and i was like "what the hell?!" and then, jessica's like "we're a little loopy." and just as she said that, she drooled all over herself, and we both started cracking up, and jenny didn't actually see it... so she was all confused as to why we both fell down laughing. then we took trash out, and while careening around the cardboard compacter i crashed the trash boat and spilled cardboard everywhere. gooodtimes.


i'm so tired.

i got distracted and went to eli's right after i typed that last post. i was gonna discuss my night. i'll do that now. i worked, yadda yadda yadda, i went out to the java house with kismet ("anna" i can't call her anna... it's crazy) and then we went to pancheros... because pancheros rules. then, we all went our different ways, and i went to walmart, to get shampooo. and i swear, the same crazy indian family that was at panera causing all sorts of trouble... was at walmart. i was like "maaaaaan" and so like, it took four years to check out. and i was sad. but, now i have a new toothbrush (for upstairs... i moved the other one downstiars today) and toothpaste, and concealer, that looks like it's super awesome.. and hair stuff. then, i came home... and took off my pretty sparkly nail polish. and talked to dusty, and begain to do my NEW nail polish. it's really pretty, but no sparkles at all *sniffle* then eli called, and i messed up two of my nails trying to get my cellphone out.... but it was ok, because i fixed them. then i went over to eli's new place, which is neato. and eli made and effort to not suffocate me with smoke, which was nice. and now i'm at home again, listening to my rocking cd that luke made for me. woo woo.

so, lawrence it GO! right guys?!


also, dusty, i hate you more than life itself. going to minnesota... grrrr.


today i worked. and it was crappy, and i got yelled at for pink hair *grrr* but, i was also warned that upper managment will be on hand tomorrow. so, hide my pink hair, tuck in my shirt, and don't wear nail polish (i'm actually putting on clear nail polish right now. i WILL NOT close with nothing on my nails. that's just asking to tear a nail out of my finger. so, tomorrow i will be a model panera employee. well.... the clear nail polish has advanced to.... french tipped nails. but really, it looks natural. so it's ok. i can claim i'm not wearing nail polish. that's how natural it looks.

this is for kyle. the next, and prolly ONLY rent stop i'll be going to for awhile... is... lawrence ks. dusty's coming. he's commited. it's on a wed. which sucks. but we will BE THERE. c'mon kyle, some maaaajor amber love could be happening... and you'd miss it.

i blogged earlier. i swear. but it's no where to be seen. it was bout how i got a tip at work, and how kyle was gonna come give me more of a tip... and stuff. it was very witty and clever and entertaining.


unfortunately i'm not witty or cheery now. i want to throw myself off a building. AGAIN. twice in one week. suck. *SIGH* *emmanates evil hate vibes* i'ts not good to hate, but that doesn't stop me from hating.