*deep breath*


i'm so much better this morning (well, kinda) tim and miriam and brad and i had breakfast at hamburg, it was very good. though, brad was being hella annoying. he wanted us to tell him EXACTLY what had happened last night. and tim and i were like "look, it's your fault you were so fucking drunk that you can't remember all the shit you caused to happen" *sigh* i do wish i knew what all was said to gabe.... by him, by derek... no, i don't. i don't care.


internet was down when i got home. and i was mad. but i fixed it! i fixed it!!! *i* fixed it! i can NEVER fix things, this is sooooooo exciting. i don't want to blog about yesterday anymore. it was too happy and i dont' feeel like it. i fell asleep last night listening to bright apocalypse and holding onto the crystal heart rob3t2 gave me (it's rose quartz for love) but i had really good lucid dreams last night and i feeeeel so much better (who was it who wanted to talk to be about lucid dreaming? apparently it's like.... really difficult to achieve, and people work on getting it..... but..... it's the only way i dream.... the only way i've EVER dreamed. i never knew there was anyother way of dreaming.... craziness.)


i want to go to disneyworld. i don't remember who i was telling this to.... maybe i imagined i was telling it to someone. but if i had gone of spring break..... i would have gone to disney. i was looking at my pictures from like.... five years ago... and i want to go back so bad. i'm such a dork. but that would be SO fun!


i have had sexy messiah stuck in my head for DAYS. seriously, this part, allllll of this has been on repeat in my head for like.... three days. everytime i'm sitting around, i realize i'm singing it.

she gave the world
her only girl
to dance the dead awake

baby god
five feet tall
jumping off of the wailing wall
as acolytes somersault
on a blue green disco ball

that's my sexy messiah
doing a flip off the wailing wall
that's my sexy messiah
giving it up for the disco ball


and why does it start with the "she gave the world her only girl" part? because that's such a RAAAANDOM place to start! (ok, i've lost everyone except kismet and rob. if he even still reads this.. *sigh*)


ok, that's enough of the sexy messiah rant. i have to go to work in like.... an hour. bah. i also have to go pick up pictures at walmart. those are ready right now as a matter of fact....


as sooon as kyle, my toast twin and fellow amber lover, tells me his story, i'm gonna go to waaalmart. buuuuhbye!