dude, strong enough was just on again. i really AM strong enough. possibly.


i came to several realizations tonight. but i just realized that i'm logged into the wrong blog to blog about it. i am lonely, and sad, and unhappy. (hmm, genius. being sad and unhappy are the same thing. i'm so smart.) i don't want to hook up with anyone, i don't want to have anyone LOOK at me. ugh.


so. maybe i'll stop wearing make up to the bar. secondly, i may stop going to the bar. i only go in hopes of seeing derek (pathetic. i know.) i cannot handle the gay society the way it's been lately. i told jenny i was going to write a book called "being straight in a gay world, my life at studio 13." i'm sick of everyone. i'm sick of everything. i'm drinking too much, i'm smoking too much. things suck.


jenny and thang rock my world.