so, blogger is broken for the time being. and i really believe that may be a really good thing. but then, maybe it's working for renata, and i can have her log in and post this.....


we'll see which wins out.... wanting to keep things secretish until i can handle posting them, or saying fuck it, and posting it now.


i'm moving home, which is a very good thing, being that i'm falling apart. between throwing up all the time the past like.... three days, and the nosebleeds and what not.... i am dehydrated, and feeling like shit. and oh so excited to be working almost 9 hours every day for the rest of the week.


now, the next question is.... will i go out this week? or will i move all of my stuff home, and not talk to anyone at all for the next.... well, until auditions and finals and everything is over and done with? or will i even bother with the auditions? should i even post any of this at all? do i want to go back to keeping every post light and happy and humorous? and just not mention when things go wrong?


from the looks of it, i can't take the summer session classes i wanted, and won't even be able to take the theatre classes i wanted fall semester. maybe i should say fuck it and go to kirkwood for a summer, or the semester. i'm seriously doubting my mental capacity, and my capacity for anything. i suck. so much. it isn't even funny. and don't say that i don't, i'm pretty damn good at fooling people.