woot

i feel about a billion times better this morning. i'm still sad.... but it's not the same overwhelming, crushing everything kind of sad.


and missy gets home today. i couldn't be happier. she's in iowa RIGHT now... i think emily's bringing her back from the airport in des moines... i get to see my missy in like.... three hours! yaaaay! (p.s. emily, i will be waiting at your door when you guys get there ^_^)


i'm gonna go eat something. my mom's home though.... i seriously wish she'd finish this random vacation time and go away. uuuugh. oh hey... i have a play to go to tonight.... that cheers me up a little. it's with my mom though, which makes me sad. doh.


in an effort to make me stop hating things (like boys, and life) ben and i are going to go to krispie kreme and eat donuts. because, that will make me feel better about gaining weight. yes, it will. (i actually really do'nt care about the weight thing that much.... it's just nerve wracking, i was like... so well, horribly underweight all through highschool.... and i'm SO much heavier than that now, but you can't tell. so it doesn't bug me... especially since i still have about six people at the bar who call me toothpick... let's see. put it this way.... i love the way i look, couldn't be happier. but there's still a part of me that is saying "oh my god, you weigh 140. that is FORTY pounds more than you did three years ago..." (yes, i weigh 140, no one believes me. ever. that's another thing that helps me not care... people are always make jokes "you can't be more than 110, wet.") oh my GOD, where did this rant on weight come from?! i'm gonna shut up now. because i'm.... crazy. ok. read this quick kids, before i delete it or make it a private LJ entry ^_^