vintage rob3t2
an excerpt from rob's blog.... circa last ... november? i wanna say? i think i may be desperatly wrong. oh well. it made me smile, and also want to cry. i miss my rob.
"well, i was talking to an old friend of mine tonight for the first time in a looooong time (it's nice to talk to old friends over holidays) about a mutual friend who happens to be beautiful (in a number of ways to be sure but we are talking singular exterior). and as i was talking to the first friend she mentioned that the second friend is uncomfortable about the fact that everyone mentions her exteriors. it is as if her identity is her face and body, and some people don't bother to look beyond the wrapping (i guess, not having actually talked to her about it). friend one told me that this upsets friend two a great deal sometimes and i realized i had mentioned her exteriors in an email, along with a number of other things about her, all in a positive "you are the absolute bomb" kind of way. but after friend one told me about friend two's situation i felt a tsunami of guilt, because i felt like i might have objectified her too, plus i do guilt well, and felt pretty awful for a while.
but upon further consideration, i realized that all of us have a curriculum to God in that we all have life circumstances that cause us to flex our spiritual/emotional muscles and un-contract the ego however we can do it. some people are not beautiful, some are. some people are geniuses, some struggle with remedial intellectual challenges, etc. whatever the duality, you are somewhere on the continuum, and people who do not see well (especially those who are a long way from you on the continuum) are going to see that as who you are, and may not like you for it. but OF COURSE you are not that.
i write well, and can barely figure out instant messaging. but really, is it worth the energy to care about what anyone thinks about me on either one? if you attach onto other people's opinions, what is the likelihood you will suffer?
back to friends one and two:
i love you both immensely...
but don't get too attached to that...
cos i'll love you more tomorrow.
awwwwwwwwwwww, wasn't that sweet of me?!
plus there is only One subject, so you are only talking to God (or yourself). why worry if God thinks you're pretty? he fucking made you that way for a reason, even if the minions and masses resist.
all that said, i still read the comments and hope for praise :)
d and k, tell me how hot i am again! "
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
i remember thinking "wow, that's how i feel...." and not realizing he was talking to kismet about me.... oh, back in the day. *sigh*
"well, i was talking to an old friend of mine tonight for the first time in a looooong time (it's nice to talk to old friends over holidays) about a mutual friend who happens to be beautiful (in a number of ways to be sure but we are talking singular exterior). and as i was talking to the first friend she mentioned that the second friend is uncomfortable about the fact that everyone mentions her exteriors. it is as if her identity is her face and body, and some people don't bother to look beyond the wrapping (i guess, not having actually talked to her about it). friend one told me that this upsets friend two a great deal sometimes and i realized i had mentioned her exteriors in an email, along with a number of other things about her, all in a positive "you are the absolute bomb" kind of way. but after friend one told me about friend two's situation i felt a tsunami of guilt, because i felt like i might have objectified her too, plus i do guilt well, and felt pretty awful for a while.
but upon further consideration, i realized that all of us have a curriculum to God in that we all have life circumstances that cause us to flex our spiritual/emotional muscles and un-contract the ego however we can do it. some people are not beautiful, some are. some people are geniuses, some struggle with remedial intellectual challenges, etc. whatever the duality, you are somewhere on the continuum, and people who do not see well (especially those who are a long way from you on the continuum) are going to see that as who you are, and may not like you for it. but OF COURSE you are not that.
i write well, and can barely figure out instant messaging. but really, is it worth the energy to care about what anyone thinks about me on either one? if you attach onto other people's opinions, what is the likelihood you will suffer?
back to friends one and two:
i love you both immensely...
but don't get too attached to that...
cos i'll love you more tomorrow.
awwwwwwwwwwww, wasn't that sweet of me?!
plus there is only One subject, so you are only talking to God (or yourself). why worry if God thinks you're pretty? he fucking made you that way for a reason, even if the minions and masses resist.
all that said, i still read the comments and hope for praise :)
d and k, tell me how hot i am again! "
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
i remember thinking "wow, that's how i feel...." and not realizing he was talking to kismet about me.... oh, back in the day. *sigh*
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