woe is me! *sad* *distressed* *confused*

oooooh my GOD.


tonight. gabe. aw JEEZE! who let that happen! there are people who are supposed to stop me! because i'm stupid when it comes to gabe.


caleb is my only friend, because, in the end, he stopped me.


so, tonight.... gabe, caleb, derek, graham, adam (oh my god, adam. i spend all fucking week looking for him, trying to find a minute to TALK to him and tell him something REALLY fucking important, and he walks up to me while i'm kissing gabe. oh dear god, could it be worse?!) oh. woe. wooooe is me.


jeeeeze.


i don't know whether to laugh at the absurdity of tonight, or to go cry. i figure laughing is better. because.... we all know how iget when i let myself cry. not good. nooooot good. almost as bad as part two of tonight... i was drunk enough that i was taking my diet pills in front of people and talking about them. dammit all. i've done SO well not letting anyone know i was taking them again. alas. all of my secrecy is for naught.


boooo. great evening, but horribly evening. all in one. i love jon though. and matty. he gave me a hickey. i was like "make sure it's not visable...." it's partially not visable....


oh... god. *woe*