eeerg
for as new as this computer is.... and for as great i thought dells were.... it fucking sucks. it's so freaking slow, and the dell help people are not terribly helpful. i have meant to post more often, but i'm been so stressed out lately that i don't have the patience to sit and wait for fifteen minutes just for the computer to start, and for aol to open, and for the blogger page to load. if it would WORK i would actually UPDATE everything... like... let's see, i'm 20, and have been for six months, i haven't worked at sears in nearly 10 months.... i've done like, three plays without changing the "project" thing... uh, there are so many dead links and shit that doesn't matter.... blaaaaaaaaaaah. computers suck. well, this one does.
a lot of my "friends" suck too. why do people need to fight all the time? and have constant drama... and make everyone else around them's life difficult? all the time.... i can't say i'm sad to have left studio behind.... because there was maybe ONE person there who wasn't insane, and i'm not even sure who that person would be. and it was constant stupidity, and bad management (not from you, matty)... *Sigh* it leads to me losing a lot of people though. boo. oh well, while were on the topic... i also hate people who think that i'm a moron, and that i don't see what they're doing while they're clearly trying to manipulate me in some way... then they get all pissed off when it doesn't work, and start hating me, and being mean... grrr. i've been so stressed out i'm grinding my teeth at night again, and now my jaw always hurts. boo. oh, and i ran into something in the events following my last night at studio... (namely crying and hating people, running into stuff, hugging bj because he's my cuddly teddy bear, and spitting wild turkey out my nose, which was possibly the most unpleasant feeling ever.) and now there's a big bruise on my hand and on my arm. blah. apparently i called graham and left my phone open and recorded an entire conversation with liz or tess or someone... and he said i sounded really happy... but i checked around, and everyone agreed that there were no points of happiness, aside from when we kicked the obnoxious stupid guy out. and maybe when i went and played in the ball pit. (they rented a ball pit for tess's birthday. why you ask? "because the mechanical bull was too exspensive." i kid you not.)
aaaah ranty. people have been being shitty lately, and i haven't said anything to anyone about most of it, and it has left me angry and grouchy... hence this post.
blogger's so cool now. i really wish i had a computer... *Sniffle* it sucks only having money in negative amounts. at least i'm not stuck in that stupid fucking lease that ivy ditched me with... it was bad enough living alone in a shitty apartment, but paying her back rent, and $600 a month to live in that shitty apartment was kind of depressing. now i live in a nice apartment! where the cops don't get called every other day, and i live with aj! and like, a block away from jon! and it makes me happy ^_^
i have to go to rehearsal/work night in an hour.... we're painting tonight! wahoo!! then i'm going home, and passing out, and not dealing with drama like last night... aj and jon were fighting, alex pissed off brandon, brandon's friend beth pissed me off, and i almost had to kill her... and she took zac's hat, and i did have to kill her on his behalf... see... i got back from pancheros with jon at like.... 2:00 and aj and brandon are like, "thank god, will you go downstairs and stop this?" and i'm like "what?" so i go downstairs and beth had takens zac's hat and refused to get it back (i was like "what, is she sixteen?" and brandon's like "yeah, she is actually." doh.) somehow zac and grabbed it back, had it on and was like... literally trying to keep her from tackling him while he tried to smoke a cigarette. so i walked down and was like "zac, i'll give you you hat back when we get upstairs." turned around and walked away, which pissed beth off hardcore, and zac was like "just put it in your room, so i don't have to worry about her jumping me" so i did, and she made like she was gonna go rummage through my room! i was like "excuse me. my house, my room, my friend. back off. *pause* no, seriously." alas. brandon and aj and jon and alex and zac and i all had good times... but never as a whole group, due to the fighting and pissing off.
at one point i went downstairs with brandon and we were both just like "awwww i love you, you're so sweet." i kept having to move around to avoid dirty looks from beth. though, speaking of people named beth, MY beth gets back to the US in like.... a week! aaaaaaaggh!! i miss her.
doh, jon's at work already, i was gonna see if he had made me a scarf yet... (jon and i are on a scarf kick. they're all the rage.) oooook, i'm gonna go to rehearsal... or maybe eat something... at any rate i'm gonna stop ranting. yup. bye.
a lot of my "friends" suck too. why do people need to fight all the time? and have constant drama... and make everyone else around them's life difficult? all the time.... i can't say i'm sad to have left studio behind.... because there was maybe ONE person there who wasn't insane, and i'm not even sure who that person would be. and it was constant stupidity, and bad management (not from you, matty)... *Sigh* it leads to me losing a lot of people though. boo. oh well, while were on the topic... i also hate people who think that i'm a moron, and that i don't see what they're doing while they're clearly trying to manipulate me in some way... then they get all pissed off when it doesn't work, and start hating me, and being mean... grrr. i've been so stressed out i'm grinding my teeth at night again, and now my jaw always hurts. boo. oh, and i ran into something in the events following my last night at studio... (namely crying and hating people, running into stuff, hugging bj because he's my cuddly teddy bear, and spitting wild turkey out my nose, which was possibly the most unpleasant feeling ever.) and now there's a big bruise on my hand and on my arm. blah. apparently i called graham and left my phone open and recorded an entire conversation with liz or tess or someone... and he said i sounded really happy... but i checked around, and everyone agreed that there were no points of happiness, aside from when we kicked the obnoxious stupid guy out. and maybe when i went and played in the ball pit. (they rented a ball pit for tess's birthday. why you ask? "because the mechanical bull was too exspensive." i kid you not.)
aaaah ranty. people have been being shitty lately, and i haven't said anything to anyone about most of it, and it has left me angry and grouchy... hence this post.
blogger's so cool now. i really wish i had a computer... *Sniffle* it sucks only having money in negative amounts. at least i'm not stuck in that stupid fucking lease that ivy ditched me with... it was bad enough living alone in a shitty apartment, but paying her back rent, and $600 a month to live in that shitty apartment was kind of depressing. now i live in a nice apartment! where the cops don't get called every other day, and i live with aj! and like, a block away from jon! and it makes me happy ^_^
i have to go to rehearsal/work night in an hour.... we're painting tonight! wahoo!! then i'm going home, and passing out, and not dealing with drama like last night... aj and jon were fighting, alex pissed off brandon, brandon's friend beth pissed me off, and i almost had to kill her... and she took zac's hat, and i did have to kill her on his behalf... see... i got back from pancheros with jon at like.... 2:00 and aj and brandon are like, "thank god, will you go downstairs and stop this?" and i'm like "what?" so i go downstairs and beth had takens zac's hat and refused to get it back (i was like "what, is she sixteen?" and brandon's like "yeah, she is actually." doh.) somehow zac and grabbed it back, had it on and was like... literally trying to keep her from tackling him while he tried to smoke a cigarette. so i walked down and was like "zac, i'll give you you hat back when we get upstairs." turned around and walked away, which pissed beth off hardcore, and zac was like "just put it in your room, so i don't have to worry about her jumping me" so i did, and she made like she was gonna go rummage through my room! i was like "excuse me. my house, my room, my friend. back off. *pause* no, seriously." alas. brandon and aj and jon and alex and zac and i all had good times... but never as a whole group, due to the fighting and pissing off.
at one point i went downstairs with brandon and we were both just like "awwww i love you, you're so sweet." i kept having to move around to avoid dirty looks from beth. though, speaking of people named beth, MY beth gets back to the US in like.... a week! aaaaaaaggh!! i miss her.
doh, jon's at work already, i was gonna see if he had made me a scarf yet... (jon and i are on a scarf kick. they're all the rage.) oooook, i'm gonna go to rehearsal... or maybe eat something... at any rate i'm gonna stop ranting. yup. bye.
posted by megan at 5:53 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home