*Sigh*
i am so frusterated with life right now.
it is impossible to work and go to school at the same time. especially if you are trying to work to live as well as go to school. i don't care enough about my homework, because i'm more concerned about getting evicted or whatever... i haven't bought groceries in like... a month and a half... if my parents didn't live in town, i don't think i'd eat... *sigh*
how do i do this? i'm gonna have to get ANOTHER job... meaning... i have to FIND another job... that will work with my schedule... which is gonna be next to impossible....
*sigh*
also, i think my landlord is trying to get ahold of me... (i SENT the damn check already, good god.) but, i don't know, because my phone is all interrupted because i need to pay the bill, and i literally don't know when/how i'm going to do that. i can GET calls... occasionally... but i can't MAKE calls at all. and i need to pay them before they COMPLETELY disconnect everything.
all day today i have just wanted to cry. and the fact that i am feeling so sad is making me feel even more sad, because i just don't know what to do... i don't think i've ever worked so hard to make things work... and had them not work at all. it drives me to the point of frusteration where i just want to sit by myself and cry. i'm even DREAMING about it every night. either that everyone comes and yells at me and everyone hates me because i can't pay them... or that somehow everything manages to get paid, and i'm all happy. either way i wake up all upset, because i'm thinking about how everyone IS going to come kill me if this stupid shit keeps up. *sigh* i'm gonna go eat something in hopes that it will take my mind off how much i want to cry.
it is impossible to work and go to school at the same time. especially if you are trying to work to live as well as go to school. i don't care enough about my homework, because i'm more concerned about getting evicted or whatever... i haven't bought groceries in like... a month and a half... if my parents didn't live in town, i don't think i'd eat... *sigh*
how do i do this? i'm gonna have to get ANOTHER job... meaning... i have to FIND another job... that will work with my schedule... which is gonna be next to impossible....
*sigh*
also, i think my landlord is trying to get ahold of me... (i SENT the damn check already, good god.) but, i don't know, because my phone is all interrupted because i need to pay the bill, and i literally don't know when/how i'm going to do that. i can GET calls... occasionally... but i can't MAKE calls at all. and i need to pay them before they COMPLETELY disconnect everything.
all day today i have just wanted to cry. and the fact that i am feeling so sad is making me feel even more sad, because i just don't know what to do... i don't think i've ever worked so hard to make things work... and had them not work at all. it drives me to the point of frusteration where i just want to sit by myself and cry. i'm even DREAMING about it every night. either that everyone comes and yells at me and everyone hates me because i can't pay them... or that somehow everything manages to get paid, and i'm all happy. either way i wake up all upset, because i'm thinking about how everyone IS going to come kill me if this stupid shit keeps up. *sigh* i'm gonna go eat something in hopes that it will take my mind off how much i want to cry.
posted by megan at 5:57 PM
4 Comments:
Hey Megan,
It'll be ok. Have you looked into student loans at all? Or something non-time-consuming, like donating plasma? Love you.
Megan! You should escape and come with me to MN and help me find an apartment (^_^). *nod* In fact, you should come find an apartment *with* me! Remember how we always said that we would have the absolute cutest apartment ever? (^_~)
Anywho...Kyle and I are still coming to IC tomorrowish and will be driving back to Ames on Sunday... So we will definitely have to find each other (^_^).
I'll give you a call tomorrow maybe? I would call you now...but I'm on the phone with Kyle at the moment.
But yes, as for job-type stuff, have you looked at nursing home/assistant type positions? They tend to pay rather well, and you might be able to work it into your schedule...
Good luck with school/work/life/etc. through these crazy times. You are an exceptionally capable woman and we all have confidence in you (^_^).
*love*
*m*,
i have no advice for you, just love. well, maybe a CARE package too.
it IS hard working through school like you are doing, which is probably why i quit 3 times. well, i'm nuerotic, so i'm sure that contributed to some of that.
yours,
-R
okay, its night now...i hope you like protein bars and pasta. oh, and floss. i almost got you multivitamins, but then i thought you would go "why would anyone buy vitamins when its FOOD i need?" and so i didnt get them. the floss i already had.
i almost got you tangerine lip balm too...i'm not sure why, but then i didn't get it. next time i talk to you i sure hope i don't hear "tangerine lip balm is my favorite!" if it is your favorite, please lie to me and tell me you'd much rather have concord grape, which they didn't have.
bye love...
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