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i'm in a disgustingly bad mood. so upset that i'm physically sick. i've thrown up twice today, just because i'm working, and i can't cry. it's weird that it's easier to take five minute to go to the bathroom to throw up, and no one notices, but if you so much as tear up a little bit, everyone notices you've been crying and wants to talk to you. and i really don't feel like letting anyone in these offices know that i am not happy right now... ugh.


at least i'm getting a lot done. and i got to take a nap this morning thanks to a mess up with dell's support. and now i have panera food, and it's a nice lunch break, because i can eat my food and cry in private. which is good, because i'm really hungry.


i'm stopping to get chocolate ice cream on the way home. then i'll go sit in bed and eat it. and watch romeo and juliet, because i bought it like a week ago, and i still haven't watched it. that should be a hint of how upset i am. i hate chocolate. and i don't really like ice cream that much. and i hate watching movies. when i'm in a good mood, i don't have the attention span to sit that long.


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